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2.15.2010

Alone.

Today my sweet friend has given me a great gift that I am hoping to enjoy.  For all the days that I've thought to myself, "If only I could get a break or someone to take her for a few hours", today is my redemption.  Travis is on an all-day thing with a bunch of boys, Ava is at my friends house for the whole day and I am here, alone.  And while I know that it's good for me and it's allowing me to get things done that I never do, I'm totally on the verge of tears, missing everybody.  The minute we pulled into my friend's driveway, I felt such a rush of guilt for "escaping" that I practically turned the car around.  But I didn't.   Days like today don't come around often and I totally appreciate the chance to do whatever I want, knowing Travis is having a blast and Ava is in great hands.

But now I'm left here with me, myself and I.  The great trio of self.  And that's what scares me.  It's been a long time since I stopped to take care of my own stuff, rather than trying to fix everyone else's.  The Lord and I have some things to discuss and I'm pretty sure I've been avoiding that for awhile.  But in the silence it can be avoided no longer.  My husband and my baby need a healthy wife and mommy, so that's what this day is to me.  A chance to breathe a little bit and get my priorities back in line....

Silence.  Solitude.  Scripture.

I need it.

I'm so thankful for the chance to get it...

4 comments:

~Bekah said...

AMen! I get mine tomorrow. I have a dentist and a hair appt. tomorrow as well as the entire day off. Josh will be at work, Shelby at Ms. Minnas ( i don't call it daycare b/c she's my sister in Christ and it's more than a daycare to me! it's like a mini-bible school for kids Pre-K and under! lol). I need to re-prioritize and re-cleanse myself as well as my home. So tomorrow will hopefully be just that! Have a great and blessed day to yourself Stephanie!

Miz Jean said...

This is exactly what it is like for moms who go back to work after having a baby. That first day is HARD. But you said it so right - your family needs and deserves a healthy you. There is NOTHING wrong with that. And Miss Ava will probably have a ball. :)

Heather said...

I relate so much to this, esp. when you said you had been avoiding a good talk with God with busy-ness, mommy-ness, etc. I think I am right there with you. So glad you got a day to yourself and hope you were BLESSED by your obedience and willingness to listen to the Lord.

Peggy & Ron said...

It's always good to feel about yourself that you are excellent company.