My Heart is Full

I'm sitting here mindlessly tonight, weary from a busy weekend, missing my husband and completely overwhelmed with the Lord's tender care for me. Travis is in Albuquerque, NM and will be home tomorrow night...he got to spend a much deserved weekend, celebrating his Mom's 60th birthday with his siblings. My parents and sister came on Thursday night and spent the weekend with me. It was a fun, relaxing couple of days and as quickly as it came, it went.

Tonight I went to our monthly prayer/worship service, which I LOVE, as it always draws me to the Lord and blesses my heart to be in corporate prayer with the body of Christ. It is sooooo cold outside tonight(-7 degrees with a -35 windchill)and it was so tempting to stay home, but I knew I needed to go and as always, I'm so glad I did. I don't like to go to "church stuff" alone, but I hate to miss Fresh Encounter services, so I went anyway and the Lord put me right where He wanted me. I sat next to a precious couple, who we've just gotten to know in the last few months, and as the night wore on, this friend shared some things on her heart that the Lord wanted me to hear. She is very poised to share in the sufferings of the road we've walked with infertility and loss and she just looked at me and covered me in truth that I've been longing for. I love the Lord for that. I didn't even know how much I needed to be encouraged until she started sharing with me and pouring out her wisdom from her own journey. It felt like water from the word washing over me and I left with newfound peace and a fresh touch from the Lord. My heart feels full tonight and the memories and realities of where we've been are weighing heavily on my emotions. I sense a good cry coming on...

But, I am brimming with hope, choosing to trust and longing for more grace as I walk this road. Tonight I'm resting in Psalm 62:5-8...

"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."

1 comment:

sheltonfamily said...

I pray for you often and I am so glad God's truth was revealed to you. You are bearing this so well and I know He is pleased with you. I know God has a specific plan for You and that His timing always surprises us. Love U!