It's Sunday afternoon and I'm taking a minute to sit and blog, simply because I need the escape. My Mom is still here with me, she stayed an extra day, because Ava has been quite a handful in the last 24 hours. It's amazing how quickly every good "routine" you've established can go right out the window! I have been taking some seriously deep breaths and asking the Lord to bathe me in some much needed patience, which I do not seem to possess on my own :) We have a little girl who has apparently developed a hatred for napping. This is a new thing sadly, as just 2 weeks ago, she napped like a champ. I'm sure this is just a little phase we're going through and I know one day we'll be back in a routine again, but for now, I want to pull my hair out! She napped a total of 1 hour yesterday, ALL DAY LONG. Today, we're not doing much better. I'm trying all kinds of tricks and trying to help her learn to put herself to sleep, but it's not easy. I have a thousand things I should be doing right now, but I'm choosing to be a little indulgent and blog instead. She is so over-tired and exhausted, it feels like we're on a bad spinning wheel that we can't get off!
The ironic thing about it is, in all my years of being a nanny, I've always had a knack for getting babies and kids to sleep. No matter how much they hated to nap or even refused to do it, I always had them down in no time and for a long time. It just figures that with my own child, I'm fresh out of luck. I'm second guessing everything I'm doing and I just want to throw in the towel and give up. Maybe it's because I'm not getting paid?? Maybe not :) Anyway, I'm trying not to freak out and dismiss the whole week before it starts, but I have a feeling that it's going to be a long one while we try and weather this napping storm.
There is one thing I'm not second guessing however, and that is realizing that being a Mommy is the best thing in the world and the absolute hardest thing too. It's a good thing she's so darn cute because I don't know what I'd do if I didn't love her to pieces! Seriously, that wild red hair saves her every time :)
Bt, on that note, I can hear her crying again so I'm off...
Oh, the joy.
